It was January 2020, during the Cancer Lunar Eclipse & great Capricorn Stellium, and I was in the middle of an ayahuasca retreat, when I heard a loud voice coming from behind me to leave the retreat right away.

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At this point in my spiritual journey, I no longer choose to participate in plant medicine, as I have become so sensitive that even thinking about an herb causes my body to feel it surging through me. However, in 2019, it opened up my perception, rewired my neurological synapses, and set me on a new life trajectory, away from the ‘not-self’ I once was.

 

But my journey began far before that, about 20 years prior, when I skipped college classes because I was up so late studying esoteric spiritual sciences, divination tools, & dream-working while dealing with deeper traumas related to psychological programming and manipulation, which went unresolved.

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Walking between worlds became my everyday reality; however, it wasn’t until awakening that it became apparent these worlds were always blended and not separate as I once thought.

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2012 & 2020 were pivotal years in the collective evolution, and the themes that emerged during those two years would have a lasting impact throughout our incarnation. In 2012, I was still learning astrology, having completed a silent 2-week Vipassana retreat & had my first hypnosis regression, during which I came into contact with my ancient ancestors, who appeared as ethereal beings from another dimension. Soon after that, I was freaked out enough to stay far away from regression therapy until about 9 years later. I also later came into the awareness that I was using meditation as an escape from reality. Yes, it took some work to realize that the New Age Spiritual Movement had been used against spiritual seekers in more ways than one.

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Spiritual growth tools are useful until they are used as a crutch, at which point they can become indistinguishable from the difference between eating to live and living to eat. We’re here to evolve and grow out of our outdated patterns, and to awaken to who we are, as well as who we are not.

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Upon returning home early from the plant medicine weekend at the start of 2020, I suddenly received a startling phone call from what became one of my mentors and teachers, Lavandar from the Starseed Hotline. She asked if I wanted to be trained to recognize & give Starseed Chart Readings. I had hoped for this call since I first had a “Starseed Reading” directly from her in 2017.

 

Of course, I was thrilled to receive the invitation and proceeded to train with her closest student and partner, Arielle, to recognize the patterns and markings. At that point, I became Miyara, and proceeded to give hundreds of Starseed readings in addition to conventional readings. In 2021, upon returning from my first Starseed Conference in one of the most potent crystal capitals of the world, Mt Ida, Arkansas, I trained as a practitioner in Beyond Quantum Healing Hypnosis with Candace Craw-Goldman, a student & mentee of Dolores Cannon.​

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I noticed that taking people on an inward journey, followed by an astrological analysis, provided a layer of self-awareness and a far greater potential for empowerment, not to mention a significant shift in one’s reality, far more than using either approach alone. When working with the subconscious, it is easier to break free of ingrained patterns that are visible in the natal and progressed charts. 

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I could look at a chart and tell someone who they were, currently are, and may become, but it’s impossible to show them the journey they are destined to embark upon in order to discover those things themselves. And the magical thing is, nothing is set in stone. We are divine beings with choice & agency, should we choose that route. I feel Astrology is a powerful modality to see both what blocks us, so as to free ourselves and move further into sovereignty.

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Often, awakenings can be preceded by a need to delve into the depths of the unconscious, subconscious, or dark underbelly of one’s psyche to cleanse and purge what no longer serves the personal and individual soul’s growth. I am no stranger to that darkness, but it met me fairly intensely in 2021-2023, as I was dismantling so much of what I had learned and understood. As I learned to let go of everything from Starseed Astrology to my own chakras, I realized how many layers of New Age programming were to be discovered and released, as they served as distractions, anchors into an alternate reality, and a barrier to the individuation and wholeness I was actually seeking. This is not to say that those things are not real, as they are just as real as anything else. However, what I realized was that we are constantly co-creating our own reality, and what we choose to incorporate into that reality has profound effects on our lives, one way or another.

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